Official notice!
Wyatt Douglas was born on Saturday, June 9 at 10:03 PM.
He was 3 pounds 2 ounces and was 16 3/4" long.
This has been a real roller coaster ride. In some ways, I have to laugh, because I think of all the "planning" we did to move, to give birth, and NONE of it went as expected.
Just as with all the IF stuff, my body has failed me AGAIN and has gotten sick to where I had to expel my sweet boy before he was ready. At the same time, he is healthy and strong, and for that I am so grateful.
The gamut of emotions I am experiencing is overwhelming. I am sad that I didn't get to experience a labor and childbirth that was more normal. I am sad for Wyatt that he had to come so soon. I am sad that I am no longer pregnant and that there is no little guy in there kicking me and rolling around. I am so sad that he is not home with me.
Yet all this sadness is rolled up in the main happiness and elation that Wyatt is here. He is SO beautiful and I tear up just thinking about his little face. I love him more than I can imagine loving anything or anyone - just overwhelming love. I want nothing for him but happiness and love.
So in the end, years of IF, deciding to use donor eggs, going through FET, going through the ups and downs of pregnancy and especially the downs of the last few weeks of my pregnancy... it was all worth it. Because now I can hold the baby we created and I can show him all the joys of life. I hope I do it well.
He is already so sweet - his little chipmunk cry and my favorite face of his: he purses his lips into an "o" and raises his eyebrows, sometimes opening his eyes in the process and sometimes not. Holding him just melts me.
Thank you to everyone who has been a part of my IF and PG journey. Now I start a new one as a MOMMY (wow) and I'll need you more than ever. :)
Crystal
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